There Are Four of Us Now

It's been a while. I just do not have the time to write, because of my busy life. Trying to be on top of everything is very difficult.

So, there are four of us now. Our latest family member is a healthy boy, born during the first quarter of 2014. It is not supposed to be easy, and it really isn't easy.

Now that we have more members, it's time distinguish the boys. Let's call our first son who is autistic, #1 and our newborn, #2.

We consider ourselves very very very lucky that #1 is a loving person by nature. He loves his little brother so much, and at all times are trying to play with him (even when he's not supposed to). After reading a lot of horror stories of how autistic children treat their siblings, I was very worried.

Yes, #1 was asking for a little brother but I assumed that he can never guess or imagine what it would be like with all the attention being taken away from him.

But Mama and Abah are lucky.

#1 is, however, not very lucky. He got a little brother but as expected we can't keep up with him as well as we could before. We have less time to spend with him. He voiced it once in a while, but I am thankful that he does not show any jealousy or hostile attitude towards his little brother.

The guilt is, however, hard to ignore.

We are trying our best son #1, and we love you both oh so much.

- Abah